Ineffable

To my annoying C,

I am so grateful having you, I really am!

Despite all problems surrounding me you always stand bold supporting me

You never get tired, you never go even for just an inch

Oh my, I must have done something really great for deserving you!

The most patient human ever who can deal with me, the-troublesome-brat

You choose to stay, you hug me soothening my fragile self with your words " It's okay, you have me, you don't need to face it all alone, we will overcome everything together, you can always count on me though I have my own burdens but you being with me as well I being with you, the two of us, we will strengthen each other."

I can't thank you enough boo, I want to write a novel about how thankful I am for meeting you but I'm out of words

I am beyond happy! I am elated! My world is light, it's ethereal

And all of these, yeah all of these feelings are ineffable.....

XO

Absence

How I wish you were here hugging me close to your heart to prove me the fact that it always beats rapidly everytime I'm around. How I wish you were here brushing my hair to wipe away all insecurities I have been keeping. How I wish you were here sniffing my scent to soothe me in silence as I tell you how tiring my day was. How I wish you were here kissing me while cupping my cheeks so there would be no distances separating us, anymore. How I wish you were here to be the last person I see before I close my eyes.

How I wish you would be there in the morning to be the first person smiling to me the moment I open my eyes. How I wish we could be there to cuddle enjoying the warmth and natural smells of each other before we start our daily activities. How I wish I would be there on top of you showering you with cute smooches all over your face as your special breakfast. How I wish time would stop ticking as we treasure our loving moments.

How I wish to replace your blanket at night to shoo away the cold that wants to disturb you. How I wish to swap positions with your morning coffee in order to taste your lips as a routine. How I wish to be with you in every second of my life, to feel you in my embrace, to stare at your wonderful eyes. But real love is not selfish, it tells me to not force you to always be with me; it's torturing yet challenging. Sincere love teaches me to be sure of you even when you are far away, to give you spaces to dance your dreams and be your own self. Unconditional love is not about how many hours have been spent together, how often our bodies bump into one another; it's about how we feed each other's souls with trusts. True love persuades me to liven up your presence within your absence, as if you were always here, you were always near.

*Written on 02.00 A.M while listening to Ed Sheeran's Photograph as I gaze to our photos. Oh, I miss you so damn much, boo.

Stay Close, Don't Go

Dear God, today I want to thank You for sending me a man my heart can be honest to. A man who is all ears to listen to my complicated stories with confusing plots. A man who lends his broad shoulders for my head to lean on. A man my eyes trust to see tears they produce. A man who comforts me when I'm messed up. A man who lifts me high when I'm down crawling. A man who doesn't run after knowing my terrible secrets. A man my tough self lets to discover my vulnerable sides. I'm an open book for him. He strengthens me, he supports me, he teaches me, he soothes me, he envelopes me with sincere love; a whole package for my happiness. Oh God, I can't thank You enough, he is all I ever asked for.

Dear you, the man I want to write about for the rest of my life, Stay Close, Don't Go.

Life Companion

I have been searching the universe even to hidden places yet I found you nowhere but sitting beside me. Why did I wander so far when my destination was so near? My best mate, I didn't realize that you were not just an ordinary mate; you are an exceptional one, the mate of my soul.

Being with you makes my dreams go wilder, I'm starting to imagine how you and me would sail the sea of our journey together. How you would guide me with your delicate hands to the top of the world. How you would build a little house with creative designs, cute decorations, and fill it with warmth as well unending happiness, we would proudly call it as a home where those little you and little me would be running around and bringing elated atmosphere in every breath we take.

Closing eyes in your tight embrace ensures me that I deserve the joy I thought I wouldn't ever claim. You become the reason for me to wake up from an eternal sleep. Your images invade my mind and how you make me chuckle in every notion of you, daily, in every second. With you I learn how to sacrifice, how not to be selfish, how to put other's feelings first before mine. Since you came, myself has been evolving, I have been surrounded by complete bliss.

Now, I put your name on my bucket list, on the list of my dreams, in my prayers, on my to-do list; to walk down the aisle hand in hand with, to promise each other in faithfullness, to grow old with. This heart beats harder, this love goes deeper. Till that time, till death do us part, dear my life companion.