Gravity

Floating peacefully and liberally in a strange vacant space
There is no force pulling me down to touch the ground
This ward is rotating spinning me around in a distortion
I am flying soundlessly, I am twirled by my own motions
I am spiraling tranquilly, I careen in my own notions
This freedom makes me high as high as after gulping narcotics
Then you come interfering my peaceful spatial aerodynamic law
Coercing and attracting me toward your side using your mass
Hey gravity, don't you feel guilty making me fall?

Waiting for a phone-call

I heave a long sigh, why does it take so long time?

I've been waiting for too long, I can't even count the time I've been spending to expect this thing

Waiting is so tiring and boring, really. Especially when there is no response, even just a simple note

It's okay to wait for too long for getting a great result in the end, a worth waiting outcome

But what if another failure will be printed out as the output?

What if these uncertainties keep going on?

Shall I waste more of my time vainly? 

Will this tree be fruitless again?

Indeed, it's not okay to wait for a thousand years, I will be wrinkled in uneasiness

When will this phone ring? Is it still functioning?

I toss another sigh, my future lies on a phone-call

Have you figured your calls out?

“I believe there's a calling for all of us. I know that every human being has value and purpose. The real work of our lives is to become aware. And awakened. To answer the call.” 

― Oprah Winfrey

That's surely an undoubted thing that everyone has his/ her own calls

Some of the people just haven't figured their calls out yet, therefore their life feels so lifeless

Now, I know I am included in those people group yet I don't know the reason why I haven't solved the riddles hiding my calls yet

The reason is whether I'm too insensible to be aware that I have calls

Or I know what my calls are but I'm too ignorant to respond those calls

Or I have listed my calls but I'm too sluggish to move doing them calls

Or I have dreamed performing my calls but I'm too sleepy to wake up and live my life calls

Or my calls are too arduous to do and I'm too chill to subsist with aforementioned kind of calls

Or all reasons above, I don't know

I have to check my voice mail right away, I'm sure there are many missed calls and messages left there

I have been ignoring my calls, I must hear those messages and execute them all

I have to answer my calls or else the Caller may stop calling me

Insomniac

My mind is so peppy to be on duty only at night
Inspirations set in when the dawn is imminent
Words stream down swiftly as the clock counts down to daybreak
Always working the night shift, chronically being superior than the slumbering bodies in a refuge
Fabrication to create some imagery and metaphors of life is upgraded under the dimness
This insomnia has been going so brutal, every day must be passed under the moon
Skin is getting dry for not being showered by the sunlight
Eye bags are becoming darker as the result of an abnormal sleeping habit
Head is aching, heaviness is attacking, depression is striking
My eyelids are too heavy to close but my thoughts are heavier
The life of an insomniac is painful yet full of creativity, ironic

We are all the same

We are all the same, none is superior than the others, none has to feel inferior

Despite our differences and diversities, we are all the same

Nations, Religions, Races, Genders, Cultures, Skin Colors

Castes, Social Classes, Professions, Intelligence, etc.

Those all make us vary but they are not reasons to put ourselves in a hierarchy

We all have either positive or negative sides, nobody is perfect

Our organs supporting our life on the inside are all the same, they look disgusting and are not shaped cutely; no one has special organs made of golds, pearls or diamonds

Hence, don't subordinate others, for we are all the same, we are all humans

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You are not the unluckiest person

Whenever you feel like you are the unluckiest person in this world
For all your sorrows, for all your battles, for all your flops
Look at the others whose woes are not exposed, are not administered
How are you supposed to be after witnessing them and all their struggles?
Be grateful first for you are luckier than them, then be ashamed for you moan louder than them















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Be Patient

“No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude and humility. All that we suffer and all that we endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable, more worthy to be called the children of God . . . and it is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire and which will make us more like our Father and Mother in heaven.” 

― Orson F. Whitney

Be patient, it's just a little bit more. You will arrive there, the point you've been aiming to.

Be patient, you will be given the answer you've been questioning of.

Be patient, God is testing your patience and perseverance now.

Nothing won't be useless unless you want it all to be. 

Let's be poets

Pouring our raptures daringly, venting our dumps implicitly
We share the same hobbies, we've got identical flairs, we depict resemblant traits
We fall for words; how involute and rumpled they can be when they are hooked one another
How they entwine their feelings together to be lines, poems or verses
Words are lovable, aren't they? So lyrical and magical, just like you
We gotta name our unnameable connections and exploit our feelings
Let's be aimless in compounding our alphabets up
Let's be poets for our own poetries

Cosmos Conspiracy

Sun burns but never stamps scorches on my pores like you do
Wind blows but never sweeps my framed images to flee like you do
Stars shoot but never grant my tacit wishes like you do
Moons project their lights to the ground but never catch my attentions like you do
Residents of earth have got no smiles like you do
Guess what, the cosmos has been conspiring to make me love you

How to Learn Wisdom?

“By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest.” ~ Confucius.

I'm reflecting myself, so much dirt, so many flaws

I'm imitating the wiser ones around me, sometimes they are not always wise

I'm researching my experiences, regrets come yet same mistakes keep repeating

It's not easy to learn wisdom, it's not simple to be wise

I think I need so much time to be wiser than now

But I don't think I could be a totally wise person because I ain't perfect

Blunders and wrong decisions keep wooing me to commit them

What I'm learning now is to minimize them and be a better person

I'm trying...

Agony

I'm in anguish,  please kiss me your morphine
A plethora of pains cripple me, I beg you to pleasure me with your anesthetic
Do you have compassion? Look at your handiness
You are my agony giving me a supreme beatitude, I howl in a bliss
What an idiocy

New Year's Eve

Our hands intertwined. Our hearts got tickled.
Our skins touched. Our eyes threw stares.
We owned each other. We loved one another.
I was yours. You were mine. World was ours.
That day. New Year's Eve.

2013: Self-Reviewing

I've been doing nothing in this year. I literally did something only in January when I was busy doing my thesis and did my thesis final examination. After that, nothing. I've been an useless person. I've been down, desperate, frustrated, insecure (till now) and a bit loony several times because I couldn't face all the obstacles came attacking me. March was the most beautiful time in this year when I had my graduation ceremony, the memories I had with my friends and family on March 19th, 2013 were captured and have got the most special place in my heart.

Why did I say 'I've done nothing in this year after graduating'? Because I've been jobless, so jobless in which both my body and mind have been stopping working for quite a long time. 11 months holiday since January! What a very long holiday I had! I regret it so much, why was I so confident? I thought after graduated I would get a job immediately. I thought I could start saving money for my future asap. Well, reality is more complicated than dreams, imaginations, plans and expectations. Experimentally proved. Why did I waste my times for uncertain things and reject the certain ones? Why was I so picky? Why was I so idealist? Why was I so arrogant? I know all the answers and let myself absorbing them to her deepest pores.

But, I have learnt many things in 2013. I learnt from failures by failures I have met. I learnt to not easily caving in. I learnt if I want to actualize all my dreams, zillions hardworks are needed. My wishes won't be granted just by casting spells. I learnt to not be egoistic and demanding because not all my requests can be fulfilled. I learnt to not cling onto others since in my hardest time, there were only God and my own self to help me. I learnt to be more independent in deciding things. I learnt to be wiser and more mature in dealing with problems. I learnt to be more patient and faithful because I know God surely will answer, God is always there beside me holding my hand in every step I take on this tangled way.

2014, I have to stop daydreaming all the time. I have to wake up, stand bold and be closer to God. What will happen in 2014 I can't predict it. I may have many resolutions but all depends on God whether He wants them to happen, not happen yet or not happen. The only thing I'm so sure is, I know I will have a blessed year ahead. So do you all. Happy New Year.

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