Have you ever felt so insecure about your life? Like, what is life? Why was I born? What is the main intention of my life? What/whom do I live for?, etc.
This condition is happening to me now. It's like the most difficult phase of my life when I start to question about the life itself.
So many questions, so little time to answer...
- What is life? Is it only about breathing? Waking up > Doing all your daily activities > Eating > Sleeping?
- Why was I born? Is it only to please my parents and then continue the next generation by having children?
- What is the main intention of my life? Is it only to be a smart, talented, creative, successful person in whole aspects of life? Or to graduate from school with oh-so-called-cum-laude and then getting a perfect job, making a lot money, getting married, blablabla
- What/whom do I live for? For money? For all people I love? For MYSELF?
- How to live my life? By following all written and unwritten rules the society makes? Or by living my life as free as I want since many people say "Just enjoy your life because it only happens once"?
Those questions keep appearing in my mind lately. I'm starting to feel that my live is so lifeless now. I don't know what to do anymore after I graduated from college. I was so passionate, yeah was. Before graduating, I always dreamed that I would be a successful girl with a perfect job and high salary so that I could make my parents and whole my families happy and proud of me, after that I would go to my dream cities, Milan and London. I would be an independent woman before I got married. I would have a perfect life. The life that I always dreamed of...
Now, everything seems so blurred. I don't know what's gonna happen next. I'm starting to feel my dreams are too much, too high to reach, too far to achieve. I'm starting to think that life is too cliché. It has arrived at the point of losing its original meaning.
