Dear you,

If ever you read this post, I hope you know my feeling towards you. I can't get why lately I always think of you. I decided to write something hoping someday you would read it. Yeah, read it and understand.

We met without a proper hello

Without introducing ourselves to each other

Because you didn't notice me

And I was too hypnotized looking at you, secretly

Do you remember when and where we first met? I bet you don't because I'm the one who lays my heart on you first without you being aware of my presence

To be very honest,

The moment I saw you, my eyes instinctively laid on you. I didn't know why. Now, I know. It was because your magnetic effect pulled both my conscious and unconscious selves to your pole.

The moment I saw you, my heart instantly throbbed. I didn't understand why. Now, I understand. It was because your smile stirred my blood to rush from my head to my toe forcing my heart working harder.

The moment I saw you, my brain continuously screamed that you were the right one. I couldn't tell why. Now, I can tell. It was because your images matched with the man I've been dreaming of.

Yeah the very moment I saw you, those things happened.

Love at first sight? Or lust at first sight?

I craved for you. Shall I say, I'm still craving for you?

Your scent.

Your every feature.

Your every expression.

Your every stare.

Your every movement.

Your every word.

Your every you...

Please wear your black shirt more often.

Please wear your blue jeans more often.

Please wear your brown shoes more often.

You look good in them. Good in term of handsome. In term of tempting. In term of irresistible.

So good.

Unfortunately, we ended even before we started.

We were so childish. Egoistically, childish.

We really were. Not only me.

We separated without a proper goodbye.

I miss you, really.

If ever we meet again. In the future. Somewhere. Someday.

If the feelings are still there. Genuine feelings. Mutual feelings.

When the two of us are already mature.

When the two of us have already stopped blaming each other.

When the two of us have already stopped blaming others.

Please greet me properly

And ask me once again.

Those three words that I didn't know, now I know them.

I just need you to utter them, utterly, properly, sincerely.

Unspoken feelings, unsaid words. Don't let them remain.

But, if we are not meant to be.

If fate doesn't let us to meet for the second time.

If we are destined for others, not for one another.

I just want you to know, I loved you that time. I love you this time.

I've been loving you...