A Letter to Love

Dear love,

Are you an angel or a devil?

Sometimes you are too good to me as an angel,

You make my mind flourish as flowers,

You make my heart pound as parades of marching band,

You make my eyes smile as morning welcoming its sunshine.

           

Love, at the other times you are very cruel like a devil,

Who comes from hell and digs holes in my soul.

            You make my mind hover haphazardly,

            You make my heart electrocuted extensively,

            You make tears stream down from my eyes stealthily.

Love, so many stories present you as the main actor.

They say you always create cheerfulness to the spectators,

But, why do you deliver destructiveness to me?

Sending sufferings of the dying into my life,

Bringing betrayal of my trust over and over again.

           

Love, you are like my lord, whom I must obey,

You treat me as your doll becoming what you want,

You never give me an approving nod to act just the way I do,

I know I’m not a perfect girl as you always look for,

I’m not pretty enough, even my hair never stay in its line.

Love, you say I’m your little sweet lily,

The sweetest one that ever grew in your heart.

Though I’m not as wonderful as the other flowers,

You promise to water me forever so that I can be blossoming,

But the truth is, you went with your beautiful roses and I faded away.

Love, I always imagine that my life is a fairytale,

I will be a pathetic princess who always looks for you as my prince,

My prince who will come with a white horse and rescue me from a dragon,

My prince who will climb the tower and save me with his sword,

But until the last chapter of the story, you never came and I was burnt in there.

Love, I realized the fact of my life is different from fiction,

The plot is more complicated and doesn't have any resolutions,

It doesn't give pleasure and never has a happy ending.

But, no matter how hurt the pain you've caused is,

My feeling will never regret to fall for you all over again,

Even though I knew, I know, and will always know that you will never be there to catch me when I fall.

                                                                                                                        Yours Sincerely,

                                                                                                                        Me