That Woman

She has been walking alone all this time on her own feet without any supports coming from others

She has been drooping many times after facing massive obstacles but decided to rise up for her children

She is very very very super tough to face the toughest days, indeed

She is so warm to battle with the coldest weathers

But, I, her only daughter, wasn't there for at least soothing her with my words

In opposite, I hurt her to the core of her heart with my verbal swords

Her bones are starting to get brittle eroded by her unexpressed tears

She never complains, she swallows all her pains alone as the wave of the sea engulfs the sand

She is way more wondrous than the Wonder Woman

She has been endeavoring and struggling to make a life for me

She carried me around in her tummy for more than 9 months

Her umbilical cord sustained me keeping me alive

I was so naughty, I made her deal with that sickness called nausea

I kicked her repeatedly inside her tummy

I managed to make her suffered to her tiniest pieces

I was so stubborn making her bleed when I refused to get out of her tummy

I even forced her to breathe uncontrollably, she had to inhale and exhale and inhale and exhale more 

To deliver me, she had to tear her womb off with all her powers, I couldn't imagine how painful it was

I responded for all her efforts to give a birth of me with no smiles, instead I cried out loud with my noisy voice

I have been hurting her since I even haven't took my breath properly yet

When I was a baby, I doubled her pains

I always disturbed her when her time to have some rest came

My noisy voice always rang like an alarm asking her to give me milk, to carry me in her hands, to take care of me

I bit her nipples when she was breastfeeding me, more bloods flowed only for me

I was so egoistic, I only thought of myself and my happiness

I didn't care if she didn't have enough sleep and got sick as the result

I didn't care whether she got hurt or not, whether she was so tired or not

I whined, I vomited, I peed, I pooped, I always made such a fuss

I was a huge troublesome infant

She taught me to talk for only getting hurt by my  bad utterances

She held my hands guiding me to walk for only being left alone by my speedy steps

She educated me with moral values for only to be treated impolitely by my actions

She hugged me when I was cold and now I let her freeze

She protected me from the heat of the sun and now I let her burnt

She raised me with all her bloods, sweats, and tears and now I dump her

She poured powder to my skin to make it healthy and soft, now I let her get wrinkled

She brushed my hair gently, now I let her hair get white slowly and fall to the ground strand by strand

As I grew older, I tripled, quadrupled, and so on her pains

I was an annoying brat, I demanded many things from her and she had to grant them all

I was so ungrateful with what I had, I wanted more, I wanted my mother to serve me with all golds and diamonds in this world

And guess what, she cut and bled herself just to comply my non-sensed requests

She crawled on the ground to get money, she injured all her body to provide me good educations from kindergarten until I became a so-called Bachelor in order to make me a successful woman

She threw her pride away and do anything to see me, this ill-mannered daughter, becoming a new strong woman following her trails

She put solid foundations on my feet so that I wouldn't fall

In case I would fall, she will be there to fall first and let me oppress her

She never paid attentions to herself, she always put her children as her first goal

Though she only can eat salt, her children have to eat rice; that's her philosophy

I never thanked her for everything she has done for me

On the contrary, I blamed her for nothing she has done wrong

I always got mad at her, I yelled at her, I uttered harsh words

I slammed my room's door every time I had arguments with her

I didn't want to answer her questions even the simplest one though she always answered me every time I asked her non-stop when I was a child, a child who was surrounded by curiosities

My offensive attitudes, I hate myself for them

I was so insubordinate, rebellious, sinful, and all bad adjectives really suit me

But her, that most beautiful woman always loves me

The only unconditional love in this universe, merely her pure heart that can produce it

Her love to me is so lavish but I never give even the cheapest one to her

Her melodious voice sometimes sounds so poignant yet she doesn't want to share her hardships

She equips me with strengths to carry my burdens on my own

She teaches me to not be a clingy girl just like her

Her eyes are the shiniest stars

Pink roses blossom on her cheeks

A crescent moon is blinking on her smiles

Her heart is molded by diamond blood

Her hands are softer than the most expensive silks

Her feet are stronger than the strongest rocks

She is the Heavenly Host to be

That woman, she is my mother

Happy Mother's Day, mom. I love you. Though my love can be measured and can't ever compare yours.

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